i always think too much!slap me please.kedfusefafaru.think nothing evil.raahhhhh.haha i am laughing at my stupidity.

i hate thinking

 
in the bus
nanyang girl
wearing a jacket
caught my eye
i wonder y


look like cute cute
look like lion
demure feel
tan skin
thick lips
brilliant nose
cool hair


cldn't stop looking
wad a sight
but when she stood up
i was brought back to reality
she ain't replaceble
no matter wad
ain't replaceble

 
bloody i am irritated.

 
today mark did a really sweet thing.i cried cos of the stupid council system.i was so damn exasperated.and yes there were many sweet people who cared.but what he did.woah.he ran to 7-11 during work session and bought me food!mash potato("what i took to be your favourite food"), strawberry lollipop("to wipe away your tears") and kinder bueno("to make you truly smile").nice right:)

and sometimes i dunno wad she wants again.

maybe its the exam stress.but i am stressed.i really think my touch rug skills are badd.tomorrow's comp how?i don't want to rush from formal and waste money on cab either.irritating.i am irritated.

 
haha i think i am overusing this place.don't care.this is what happens when i go mad.she changed the song on there blog.and she put this too.
i noe right now u dun care,
but soon enough u're gona tink of me.
and how i used to be,me.

haha.obviously you know who it's about right?i don't want to think.cos i am too dumb to handle all that thinking.it's stupid really.maybe i don't really care so much i just make myself do?i get too obsessed over something that didn't really exist?i think i'll go away.maybe.that'll be just fine.RIGHT.

 
Had a drive
Driven by your love
But when you messed around
I lost the drive I found

Thought you needed
Needed someone true
But you changed your mind
Or had I failed you?

Wish you'd been
Careful with my heart
But you tore it apart
And broke an angel's heart

The kiss was true
Has to end somehow
But I am livin' proof of what love is about

It's hard holding you
Loving you, losing you
It's sad to be true
And be fooled by you
I don't know (I don't know)
I gotta know
Should I stay or should I go?

You played me on
Played me like a clown
But I feel for you
Even though I'm down

My heart is heavy
Heavy like a rock
But I am so amused
You're still in my thoughtsI

t's hard holding you
Loving you, losing you
It's sad to be true
And be fooled by you
I don't know (I don't know)
I gotta know
Should I stay or should I go?

Oooohh should I stay?
Should I go?

It's hard holding you
Loving you, losing you
It's sad to be true
And be fooled by you
I don't know (I don't know)
I wanna know
Should I stay or should I go?

This time its done
It'll never feel the same
But we had some good times
Guess it's sad just the same

I guess the truth
Doesn't matter somehow
But you were livin' proof of what love is about

 
黑暗中的我们都没有说话 一直想回家 不想你回家
寂寞 深的太让人害怕 温柔你的手
轻轻揉著我的发 你的媚颜说你渴望我拥抱
你身体却在拼命它 等欲望在燃烧
你爱我还是他 是不是真的他有比我好
为谁在挣扎 你爱我还是他
就说出你所说的真心话 你到底要跟我还是他

爱 爱 爱 这是不是命运对我的惩罚
爱你也没办法 恨你也没办法
陷在这个漩涡只想挣脱它
拉住你的手
却让我也比拖下 AH~ 你的眉眼说你不渴望我拥抱
每当爱变成了煎熬 你就开始要逃


你爱我还是他 是不是我可以做他的好
为谁在挣扎 你爱我还是他

我宁愿听到残忍的回答 也不要再被耍
你爱我还是他
我为你找了一百个理由
我就是那么傻 爱我还是他
是否沉默代替你的回答
我应该明白吗 爱我是他噢
你都已看不到我们的好 我还会心牵挂

你爱我还是他
是否沉默就是你的回答
我们都别挣扎
去爱他

 
all the 'u' r diff pple izzt???i know its unreasonable for me to scold u 4 embarassing me..cos u're like helping me..mayb cos u wan me to experience tt same happiness u felt??but mayb i'm juz contented with small things??


its irritating how sb may not like u tt much yet acts otherwise..both of them...heard of action speaks louder than words??mayb tt's her way of doing things..mayb she dun realise the consequences of her actions..cos she got nth to lose?she's got hold of u...i dun wan the same with me..

 
i think i'm mad.i think i'm jeaalous.i think i'm unhappy.i think i'm happy.i think i'm confused.i don't know anymore.everything comes and goes.there wasn't any finality.what nonsense.there was no choice.there isn't anything to regret.it's still there.so what will i do?what's left of me?i don't know.but i can't pretend i don't care.you scold me for embarrassing you but i think you're happier than i am now.despite my constant proclaimations about how i am happy there is this naggin feeling somewhere that reminds me that i still ain't the one and one day i'll realised i've been deceived used and given up my feelings to the wrong one.i'm not her.you know it.and i can't replace her.you know it.i'm afraid to lose you.you know it.i fell for you.you know it.