first kiss.

 
Somebody asked me the other day if i was handed a gun, and i had to choose to either shoot my boyfriend or my best friend; who would i shoot? my answer would be i'd shoot myself because i'd take a bullet for all the people that i love. aww.

 
sometimes i find it really nice here when i get to release everything knowing no one will know what is going on.anyway i realise i've been so foolish.i keep thinking of the impossible.it affects friendships.was suffering from withdrawal symptoms just now its terrible.then jealousy kicked in.but i cant do much about things.maybe just try to let go?but every glance brings it back.and those memories.how could they disappear.if i think of it practically it'll have no ending but somehow your mind doesnt exactly work the right way concerning matters of the heart.a fling?just my fantasy.i am rather sad.shall try not to think of her.that awfully perfect thing.

 
i know.they call it addiction.

 
suddenly u feel that sinking feeling that it'll never happen again.wish it didn't have to end.it was really perfect.sometimes it just brings back all the feelings u tot u already put away for so long.sigh.

 
today was a dream.i guess it was what i wanted for so so long.it's like six hours plus spent together.and heard quite some stuff too.but mayb tts all tt'll be.but i should be satisfied.even sent me home!lovely lovely i got to stare for so so long.

 
i should be happy.i get pissed.but there are stuff to pacify me.

 
Today i wanna say Thank you,
For your friendship thru the years,
For offering your support selflessly,
When i needed someone to dry my tears.

Today i wanna say Thank you,
For you have given me so much of your time,
When my world crashed down around me,
It was you who convinced me things would be fine.

Today i wanna say Thank you,
For being able to understand,
I never had to say a word,
You knew just when to lend a hand.

Today i wanna say Thank you,
Thanks for your hope and belief in me,
I'll be your strength when your down,
I'll always have faith in your dreams.

Today i wanna say Thank you,
For the person that you are,
I know one day that voice you've got,
Will turn you into a star!

Today i wanna say Thank you,
I don't think i say it enough,
You realise whats really important,
When the road you walk is rough.

Today i wanna say Thank you...I
love you like a sister and you need to know,
Today i wanna say Thank you...Cause we don't always have tomorrow.